This afternoon my employment officially ended, and I am left feeling broken and sorry. Over the past few weeks my dedication to my job waned, I became unreliable and distracted, and did things I would never before have done.
I loved my job. Sure, I complained about it, like anyone in the customer service industry would do, but the people I worked with were all amazing people, the shifts were mostly enjoyable, the management were loveable and it had become a social experience, to say the least. Situations like losing your job really put into perspective the way your actions affect other people, and because of this, I would like to apologise to anyone my lack of dedication to work affected.
The past few months have been trying, and stressful, and I know I have become someone I never used to be. I have become withdrawn, socially awkward and terribly judgemental.
This opportunity to start fresh is terrifying - mostly because it leaves me unsure of what the future holds. Not only am I now in an apartment all on my lonesome, I now need to find a new job, meet new people and start all over again with gaining the trust of my fellow employees. Maybe a fresh start is just what I needed to feel in control of my life again. Who knows?
All I know is this: I am sorry, I am terrified, and I need to rely on God.